STRESS!!!

Stressful day. Grades. Need I say more?

Me and my thinking again...

Dude, this quote is exactly my way of thinking! You see... I have this problem with letting people go. I try to avoid it at all costs.

Have you ever liked someone, but wish you didn't because you know that all high school relationships eventually come to an end? Like you don't want something to go wrong, or drive them away because they mean THAT much to you? Cause that's how I feel.

I like a boy, and he says he likes me too, but I wont go out with him because I don't want to eventually lose him.

Yup... I admit it... I'm crazy. But inside my mind it makes perfect sense!

Drugs.

Hey, Kacee here again.

Who else would you expect? I need to apoligize for something I did to a friend. I'm not going to say names or point fingers at this person because that's not what I'm trying to do. I just want to get a point across to all my other friends and you. I want you guys to understand this about me.

I personally think that drugs are stupid. THEY ARE! They show weakness. They show you have no respect for yourself or the people around you. These days us kids fight for the right to express ourselves and be ourselves. We want to be respected as who we are, not what people want us to be. Kids want argue with their parents for freedom to hang out with who they want to. But those same kids are the kids out there doing drugs. Drugs are NOT part of those categories.

I mean think about it. When your under the influence of drugs you're not yourself. You act completely different, you're not in control of your life. Therefore, You don't respect yourself, or the people around you. The people who love you, and the people you love because you're not yourself anymore. You also lose your right to express yourself because when your under the influence of drugs your NOT yourself. You don't respect yourself because drugs can kill you, and killing yourself isn't respect. You lose your freedom to drugs because now your addicted. For life. If you're saying one thing to your parents, and trying to fight for it, but going out with friends and doing the exact opposite... You dont deserve the freedom to hangout with who you want to. Now do you?

Most of all drugs show you you're weak. They show weakness. They show not only have you given up to peer pressure, but you've given up on so much more. You've given up on yourself. Your friends, family, boyfriend or girlfriend. Because when you get lost in drugs you lose yourself. And when you lose yourself then you've really lost it all.

This topic is touchy to me okay? IT IS! I remember when I was little and my dad was drinking and driving with us in the car. We crashed... alot. We could have died. He could have killed us! That night I lost all respect for my dad. I did. What kind of person would put not only their lives but their loved ones lives in danger, too? Luckily, we all survived, but because of that night we had to move to Alaska. Eventually, I started talking to my dad again, but nothing like before. It was gone you know? And it hurts thinking back to that day okay? Also, my dad isn't the only family member of mine that has been into drugs. So trust me when I say these things about drugs okay? Because I know. ---I love you dad. Because of you I wont do drugs... Thank you.

Now, back to the real reason why I am posting about drugs. I herd a friend of mine has done drugs, and I dumbfounded! I freaked out and asked my friend about it and that friend admitted to doing drugs. I yelled at my friend. I should have taken the news better, but I didn't. I just want what's best for my friends. I don't want my friends to have to live life with drugs because their friends never cared enough to tell them what they were going was stupid. I was trying to help. I just didn't know how to get the point across.

-----Please forgive me. All of my friends for the past, present, and future if you make a mistake, and I blow up at you. Because I only mean you well. I love you guys.

Dream...

I know you guys are probably sick of reading about my grades, but it's really worrying me. Does anyone want to hear something that I've only mentioned to my mom? Okay, well don't laugh cause here it goes.

Since I got my first set of straight A's this year after the first quarter I was really proud of myself. I didn't think I could do it. Honestly, I'm not smart AT ALL! I'm really not. So, when I saw that I got all hopeful thinking. I imagined myself at the top of my class giving that famous speech they always do to everyone who graduated. I want to graduate at the top of my class, but it's a hard dream to fulfill. Especially when everything keeps going wrong with my grades.

Everytime i look at power school my grades go down UGH!

Tomorrow.

I'm scared to talk to my P.E. teacher about my grade. I was up all night worrying about what she would say. I DESERVE those points for that day, and if she wont believe me my mom and her are going to have a nice little chat.
I'm scared to go to track tomorrow because I'm sick... AGAIN! Can you believe it? That's so annoying... My glands in my throat are swollen... What are those antibiotics the doctor perscribed supposed to do anyways? Because there not doing anything. I'M THROUGH WITH BEING SICK!
But, on the bright side I get to see him. <3

Cross Roads

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back

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(What can I say... I'm in a posting mood today. I have alot on my mind.) Let me ask you a question. Say someone tells you they want you out of their life so wouldn't that mean all of it? Every single piece of it OUT! For good?
Your answer: Yes, that would mean all of it. They don't want you around so you should respect that.
EXACTLY! YOU'RE SO SMART! BECAUSE THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT! I figure heck! He's got a girlfriend he is over me so I can have my favorite pillow case back. I ask all politely and I am told to stay out of his life. So, I have his sister get it and I get yelled at for not getting my things back myself. Well I tried! Jerk!
So, they ordealio was over, and he deleted me off myspace and facebook. What ever. Then, today I go and get on the computer and my mom's facebook was open, and so was her chat. Before, I sign her off I notice that Jared was online in her chat box. WOW, WOW, WOW, WAIT BACK UP AND FREEZE! My mom is a big part of my life! Heaven forbid she gave birth to me! So, delete me from all social networks but not my mom? What does that show? Huh... I'm not going to let it get to me... Cause I like someone else. =D

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Next matter of buisness- Grades. UGH GRADES!!! I hate my grades! I hate them! But, I love them at the same time. Okay? What Kacee? You're not making any sense! Simmer down and lets explain to the common folk what the heck you mean!

My grades. Are crazy amazing, but I'm sick of everyone expecting me to get good grades all the time! It's so annoying! Especially, when it's me who expects me to get good grades. Heaven forbid I can't weld if my life depended on it! So there goes my welding grades! I was going to switch otu of that class and sissy out like everyone else who traded out, but! That would me that the glory wouldn't be all that great now would it? NO! So, here I am tuffing out that class and now I have a C in P.E. Grr... Because I lay down on a blue matt for two minutes I don't get any points for that day? WHAT'S WITH THAT! To answer your statement forming in the back of your head... YES!!! I AM GOING TO GO TALK TO THAT TEACHER! Because that's NOT FAIR!

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To end on a happier note :D Last night at the dance was amazing! I had fun! Track seems to be going good. :D

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.-And well if you're Kacee you turn around and fight. Because, when you turn around and go back that means your giving up before the battle even begins. And no one wants to be a loser. ;)

Track-Track-Track

Every runner has excuses, but a champion never uses them
The upsides of wasting your high school experience on tracks.
-When people ask if you're doing something after school you can smile and say, "Yeah, I have track." Makes you feel all sportsy you know?
-It makes you WANT to be healthy. I eat better now, and take better care of myself. Because no one can run on a low calorie diet, without breakfast, or drinking soda... So my eating habits are better.
-Those days when your hair looks like crap, and your makeup just seems to smeer you know "Hey at least I have nice toned legs!" (Even if they do look a little manly.)
-Instead of sitting home eating just because I am bored I am out doing something healthy.
-Between all these track meets, and practices I'm bound to get tan. =D
-There is always new people to meet. Helps you make friends. The good kind too! Not the ones out doing drugs .