The Last Song

Yeah, today Katie and I went to see "The Last Song"... You know the stupid Miley Cirus movie. Yeah, we went to watch it because there was a hot guy in it, and we thought it was going to be a love story... Yeah, that show is definitely NOT a love story...
Katie, and I were the only one's in the theater, and that was definitely a good thing. In the show her dad dies. . . . . Katie and I started bawling our eyes out! Seriously! It was the saddest thing that has happened to me in a long time! Katie pulled out tissues from her jacket and by the time the movie was over the tissue... was... well... I wouldn't have classified it as a tissue anymore. It looked like moss hanging from trees, or cob webs in a horror movie. It was so wet I could almost wring it out.
When the movie end we walked out of the theater and just our luck... a kid from our school was in the lobby. We bolted into the bathrooms... HOW EMBARRASSING! SERIOUSLY! Then, as we were leaving the people at the concession stands told us to have a nice day... psh... they only said that cause we had make up running down our faces with red eyes.
We got in the car and Katie was calling Nathan. Before he even said hello I was bawling my eyes out AGAIN! Katie had me talk to Nathan and eventually he has me calmed down... Yeah so embarrassing... to the power or 97! Thankfully, I got to text the guy I like and he made me feel better. Such a sweet heart!

True love is when you can't sleep because for once reality is better then your dreams.

Yesterday, after track I went to Jessica's house and Megan showed up. I forgot how much i missed chilling with Jessica and Megan. We got all cleaned up and went and made pizza, spaghetti O's, mac n cheese, and brownies. While they were making them they were pushing a fart button on Megan's ipod touch and being complete dorks. It was hilarious!
Then, together we all went to Jeremy's concert. (He set up this concert at the junior high, and it was with all the local bands.) While we were getting ready I learned the boy I like was coming. We all got there I planned on chilling with Megan and Jessica, but when the guy I like showed up they both bolted. I was left sitting there freaking out not knowing what to say. Thanks guys. In the end it turned out to be a pretty good night.
I was up til twelve thinking about him. <3>Kacee what's wrong with you!?!!?!? Honestly. Up all night thinking about guys, not focusing on track, and worrying about grades on a weekends. What is going on with you? You're all Topsy turbey!

STRESS!!!

Stressful day. Grades. Need I say more?

Me and my thinking again...

Dude, this quote is exactly my way of thinking! You see... I have this problem with letting people go. I try to avoid it at all costs.

Have you ever liked someone, but wish you didn't because you know that all high school relationships eventually come to an end? Like you don't want something to go wrong, or drive them away because they mean THAT much to you? Cause that's how I feel.

I like a boy, and he says he likes me too, but I wont go out with him because I don't want to eventually lose him.

Yup... I admit it... I'm crazy. But inside my mind it makes perfect sense!

Drugs.

Hey, Kacee here again.

Who else would you expect? I need to apoligize for something I did to a friend. I'm not going to say names or point fingers at this person because that's not what I'm trying to do. I just want to get a point across to all my other friends and you. I want you guys to understand this about me.

I personally think that drugs are stupid. THEY ARE! They show weakness. They show you have no respect for yourself or the people around you. These days us kids fight for the right to express ourselves and be ourselves. We want to be respected as who we are, not what people want us to be. Kids want argue with their parents for freedom to hang out with who they want to. But those same kids are the kids out there doing drugs. Drugs are NOT part of those categories.

I mean think about it. When your under the influence of drugs you're not yourself. You act completely different, you're not in control of your life. Therefore, You don't respect yourself, or the people around you. The people who love you, and the people you love because you're not yourself anymore. You also lose your right to express yourself because when your under the influence of drugs your NOT yourself. You don't respect yourself because drugs can kill you, and killing yourself isn't respect. You lose your freedom to drugs because now your addicted. For life. If you're saying one thing to your parents, and trying to fight for it, but going out with friends and doing the exact opposite... You dont deserve the freedom to hangout with who you want to. Now do you?

Most of all drugs show you you're weak. They show weakness. They show not only have you given up to peer pressure, but you've given up on so much more. You've given up on yourself. Your friends, family, boyfriend or girlfriend. Because when you get lost in drugs you lose yourself. And when you lose yourself then you've really lost it all.

This topic is touchy to me okay? IT IS! I remember when I was little and my dad was drinking and driving with us in the car. We crashed... alot. We could have died. He could have killed us! That night I lost all respect for my dad. I did. What kind of person would put not only their lives but their loved ones lives in danger, too? Luckily, we all survived, but because of that night we had to move to Alaska. Eventually, I started talking to my dad again, but nothing like before. It was gone you know? And it hurts thinking back to that day okay? Also, my dad isn't the only family member of mine that has been into drugs. So trust me when I say these things about drugs okay? Because I know. ---I love you dad. Because of you I wont do drugs... Thank you.

Now, back to the real reason why I am posting about drugs. I herd a friend of mine has done drugs, and I dumbfounded! I freaked out and asked my friend about it and that friend admitted to doing drugs. I yelled at my friend. I should have taken the news better, but I didn't. I just want what's best for my friends. I don't want my friends to have to live life with drugs because their friends never cared enough to tell them what they were going was stupid. I was trying to help. I just didn't know how to get the point across.

-----Please forgive me. All of my friends for the past, present, and future if you make a mistake, and I blow up at you. Because I only mean you well. I love you guys.

Dream...

I know you guys are probably sick of reading about my grades, but it's really worrying me. Does anyone want to hear something that I've only mentioned to my mom? Okay, well don't laugh cause here it goes.

Since I got my first set of straight A's this year after the first quarter I was really proud of myself. I didn't think I could do it. Honestly, I'm not smart AT ALL! I'm really not. So, when I saw that I got all hopeful thinking. I imagined myself at the top of my class giving that famous speech they always do to everyone who graduated. I want to graduate at the top of my class, but it's a hard dream to fulfill. Especially when everything keeps going wrong with my grades.

Everytime i look at power school my grades go down UGH!

Tomorrow.

I'm scared to talk to my P.E. teacher about my grade. I was up all night worrying about what she would say. I DESERVE those points for that day, and if she wont believe me my mom and her are going to have a nice little chat.
I'm scared to go to track tomorrow because I'm sick... AGAIN! Can you believe it? That's so annoying... My glands in my throat are swollen... What are those antibiotics the doctor perscribed supposed to do anyways? Because there not doing anything. I'M THROUGH WITH BEING SICK!
But, on the bright side I get to see him. <3