"It's actions, not words, that matter"

"You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions your should judge them by. It's actions, not words, that matter."
~Nicholas Sparks
I understand it now. I understand it all. All those times I did things for him, that he took for granite. All things I swore to myself I would never do, I did for him. I did so much, and yet I am the one that ended up with a broken heart. I should have realized what Nicholas Sparks is talking about. I should have noticed all the times he didn't do things for me that I asked him to do... I shouldn't have even had to ask. He should have just understood.
It's annoying that I ruined so much for a guy who only thought of himself.

"It's impossible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief... lessons. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so over whelming."
~Nicholas Sparks
Another thing seriously frustrating me right now is how much I miss my dad. I was talking to a friend in Utah and she seems to think that I am never happy. That I make myself miserable. I don't. I put a smile on my face everyday. I am hurting every day of my life. I am missing so much that she gets every freaking day. If anything she is the one who makes herself miserable because she complains over the little things like not being able to hang out with friends. The crap I am going through is something most people don't have to experience until they are forty. She has no room to judge or talk. I assume that friends would try to help, but they all can't see past their own noses.