TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN!

You know people change... most the time it's for the worst.
Sometimes it's for the best... but most the time I've seen it for the worst.
I'm sick of thinking I know people and then turn around and realize there not the people I've come to know and love.
Friends, family, enemies... It's all the same.

People say I should keep high expectations for myself...
But how can I do it when those same people are tearing me down?
I DO want good grades. I WONT do drugs. I WONT get pregnant as a teenager... I doubt I'll get pregnant at all. I will NOT act a certain way to make people happy. YES I DO speak my mind... AND GUESS WHAT THERE IS NOTHING ANY ONE CAN DO ABOUT IT!
I'm not the average teenager. I care more about things teenagers shouldn't care about like grades.. and things teenagers should care about I don't care about like friends and boyfriends.

People here in Alaska think I'm negative... and its true. But I don't care! I'm so done with trying to be happy... many people say it takes more muscles to frown then to smile... If that smile is fake it takes more energy to smile. I'm all about showing how I truly feel and what I truly think. The only people I need to impress...is ... ME! If Something sucks... I'll complain about it.

NO ONE is going to tell me how to act, or what I should be. Tell me to act like a young lady... and ill purposely chew with my mouth open... tell me the only thing i am good for is having kids and being a stay at home mom.... just to make you angry ill go work at a construction site... see what I am saying? The more you tell me to do something... the more I don't want to do it.

AND! I stress out alot... therefore I am allowed to throw fits because I CARE! If I didn't care i wouldnt throw a fit.... because it means alot to me i throw fits.
People tell me not to bottle it up inside... and when i do let it all out they get angry... well guess what! IM GOING TO DO WHAT I WANT!

I'm not okay with being average... im not okay with blending in or being what people expect me to be. I'm not into impressing everyone...I'm not into fitting in... I'm going to do what I want... Whats good for me... hate me all you want... but there isn't anything you can do about it... unless you kill me... and that wont happen :D