Pathetic attempt to start a new life haha

It's been two and a half months. Two and a half months of home work, and failed attempt to make any friends. What a pathetic way to start life in Alaska. I would have friends if I had time to focus on them, but I don't. Teachers here must have no lives, because they absorb themselves in students lives by giving them homework. What a sorry excuse to imprint your being on 200 students every night. Wouldn't you agree?
Notice that running isn't in my list of things? Yeah. Well. Needless to say I have the worst possible hips God could have given me. I'm on so many medicians it's insane. Walking to much hurts them. I'm losing my muscle mass, and I have been told many times that I look like I'm not eating. I do eat. When I have time. Which isn't much. It's been decided that running needs to take part in my life or I will have lost myself. That's final. And it doesn't help I keep having dreams my sister has a six pack. Needless to say my new years resolution is going to be the same it has been for the past.... five years.

3 years without you...

It's been how long since you've been gone?
I didn't think the hurt would last so long.
People see me and think I'm okay,
as I survive through the hurt eachday.
The hurt is still here and I miss you so...
More then anyone would ever know.

There is a piece missing and I can't get it back.
I've been looking, but I'm so off track.
How am I expected to last through life,
when each day all the hurt is cutting like a knife?
I've changed since that phone call that day,
when I learned you wasted away...

I'm trying to hold on; praying for the happiness back.
It's the one thing I most often lack.
Where have all the good things gone?
What am I supposed to do from now on?
You memorial day is coming, what do I do?
I can't stand missing the man I once knew.