Well I think I should change the quote on the top of my blog, because I just reversed it completely. Lately I have been so frustrated with myself. I give my all everyday at school, everyday at track, I try hard in competitions to win something, and yet I get nothing. Not even a "good job Kacee I'm proud of you!"... Does anyone know how frustrating that is?
I quit track. My all time favorite thing on the face of the planet, I just up and left. Why the heck would you quit something that means so much to you might you ask? Well because it doesn't make me happy anymore. I used to love running cross country and seeing myself improve, but no one really said good job. No one went out of their way to go to one race. It wasn't important enough to them. I wasn't important enough for them. All season long I decided I would try my hardest and try to get the other runners to accept me, and have the coaches tell me good job. I ran all freaking winter long and then when track season finally came I finally was starting to get accepted. I FINALLY got a good job from the coaches, and then we just up and moved... My cross country coach up here and my coach at my other school hated me. I wanted to prove to him that I could do it and then my hip injury ruined that. Then, I moved again and my track coach didn't even notice me, and when he did it was when I didn't do good at all. Plus it was like a whole start over with trying to get the team to accept me again.
I finally just got sick of it and told him I was quitting. I was crying and it was this huge mess! I don't know what to do. I want to run for fun, but I don't want to get out of high school and wish I did it you know?
I gave up... the opposite of what my quote at the top said.
Not to mention I might have aneurysms on my brain... Fantastic... That would explain why I have been coming home and sleeping so much, and getting head aches... The worst part is someone in our family just died of one, and my uncle had to get like six fixed through brain surgery... fan... freaking... tastic.
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- KaceeL7
- I am as real as it gets. I'll tell you things that offend you, make you, and possibly even break you. You have honesty coming from me all the time. (At least honesty in my eyes.) I'm not perfect, and I realize now that I sure as hell don't want to be. I see the world through a completely different lens. If you can't accept that, then go find another blog to read, because after all this blog is all about me.
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1 comment:
"" And well if you're Kacee you turn around and fight. Because, when you turn around and go back that means your giving up before the battle even begins. And no one wants to be a loser. ;) "" -- You actually said wrote that and now, you want to give up track?
I've read a few of you 'old posts on track and it showed how much you loved it and how much it contributed to your life....It also resulted in some great moments, moments which aren't found easily.....
I know it's almost 2-3 months since you posted this but...I hope you go back to it.
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